This is Drew trying on winter hats at target.

ahhh.. yes the holidays

For some reason I'm quite chipper in my mellowness, if that is even possible. I used to love the holidays when i was little, all my family gather round party presents. But this year, its talk of foreclosers instead of festivities, lack of money, lack of cold weather, and just a general gloom because no one in construction has work, and/or money.. sad sad sad. And yet I stil find myself playing christmas music, thinking longingly of a tree, which we arent getting this year, and just hoping for stability... soo sad mellow and hopefully chipper, that sums it up. Im excited to share Andrews first christmas with him, unfortunately walter will not be with us. Im flying to MA to visit my mom and sisters and he was originally going to come but money, that damn hinderence, wont allow it. Then his boys were going to come down but their mother wants them for christmas, so he will be alone. but he promised he will be with his family and friends and not be sad. And I'll be back the 28th, so I wont be gone for long. I leave on my birthday the 19th.. And will hopefully have a white freezing winter! i love the cold. Such a good alternative to the heat.. lol.
Andrew is growing more and more. Hes incredibly tall and still every chubby, he cruises with the best of them, and has now taken to letting go to try and do it on his own... lasts for a few second and falls on his butt, which he finds extremely funny, laughs a bit then tries again. He wants to do everything we do, and he loves to strum walts guitars...hes very active, nd my hands and brain are extremely full just trying to keep up with him..

BitterSweet

Its bittersweet to finally say my dad lost his house. Because Id hoped that that house would stay in our family forever. It was a great house. But my dad has been into drugs i guess the past couple years and going downhill, and just hanging around the wrong people... anyways the house, it sat on 20 aceres, was a 3/2 with an office, dining room living room and family room, then it had a 2/1 guest house with a pool. It was a nice house, and i grew up in it. I lived there for like 15 years, but my dad got it in the divorce and once my mom moved out he let his nasty whore girlfriend live there. so it has bad stigmatisms to anyways, but whatever. He remortgaged it to like 500,000 and he could support the mort and his habits, so he let it go. its bittersweet. And i never thought like when i was younger that id go from living there to the ghetto, and im aware how snobby that sounds but seriously i never thought. Ahh love lol

many things I'd like to change

There are many things i wish i could change, one money, and i'd like to have some, two my mentalitity and the way i look at things. Sometimes i just let my thoughts consume me and im just an empty shell of a person sooo deep in thought and my own brain i have no idea whats going on a round me. and i hang on to stupid stuff that happens. I always expect that the worse will hapen when it comes to men and confrentation, but yet im optimistic for the future. How do i do it? i have no clue. ugh!! now i know why people drink. lol

I've got an odd feeling

So I'm having such mixed emotions right now, almost like I cant decide if I am happy or sad. And seriously what a stupid way to feel right? I know. But thats half the problem. I dont know, maybe it isnt and Im just being stupid. I have this odd sence of strenght like I need to make some choices in my life, and I know Im going to and whatever they are my decision will be definate. But at the same time I have this feeling of weakness, and not knowing what is going to happen. I know walt and I are kind of in a weird funk right now. Like he makes choices and does waht he wants to do.. And I feel like I'm always sitting around waiting for him to make his choices. And now I have this new sence of well IM not waiting around anymore. Im going to start making decisions for myself and my life. And I feel like there is this invisible wall between him and I like instead of joining our lives together, he still just sees his life as him not ours.. but isnt that what marriage is? joining your lives together? Becoming one.. Nt one person obviously, but one life, where the other person is the most important to you and the faily you create is most important. Im not sure if any of this makes sence. But it is how I feel. And he probably feels this way too sometimes...

Worn out

Seriously, Im worn out today. I have very little patiences today.. Im hungry and we have no food in the house. And I'd love to go get some, but Andrew is being very active today.. He's crawled out of his walker already, been all over the house trying to get into everything... won't nap lol. This is the difficult stage, and Im sure it is only going to get harder. The only reason I have a second now is because he is sitting in his bouncey seat which he hasn't figured out how to crawl out of yet and he is eating little puffs. Thank goodness for that bouncey set!!

Andrew's First Halloween

So after the doctors, target, and hanging out at home, Walt Drew and I went to the celtic for a pint. Well I had a pint walt had 2 lol, and Andrew went as a little pumpkin. There really isnt much to do with a 9 month old for holidays, except go out and do what we want with him. But it was fun, then we went to visit Lennon who dressed as spiderman, and bob, and hang out there for a while. After that we came home. It was fun. And Andrew always has fun where ever he is, so it was a good night.

goals

oh and i just realized because its Halloween that this is the time i start my christmas shopping. Because I figure if I tick at it little by little make my list and start early it wont seem like i spend as much money and I can relax and enjoy the holidays. I plan on having it all done by thanksgiving or the first week in dec. So Im starting now. LOL. And target is a great place to start. They have great sales on picture frames which is always a great gift for pepole who you have no idea what to get. People love pictures and frames. At least my family does. lol. So im starting now. go me. lol.

halloween doctors visit

ANdrew had his nine month check up today, and no shots this time. Which is good because I think Drew is starting to hate his doctor. I was getting him ready today, and talking to him while dressing him, saying "Andrew want to be a big boy and see how much you've grown and go to the doctors with mommy?" And he started smiling and shaking his head no. lol. So I asked him again, "do you want to go for a ride to the doctors with me?" Same response. Shaking the head no while smiling and laughing. Then came the bargining, Drew do you want to go with mommy and then get a new toy? And he started doinghis little uh huh. So cute. then he started waving bye bye. lol. So we went, and he is now 27 lbs strong and healthy. He has 6 teeth, says dada mama baba dog boob and boobie. lol he crawls, pulls himself up walks holding on to stuff.. growing way too quick.
After the doctors appt we went to target, I got halloween candy for the trick or treaters and I bought him his first 9 month old toy. Because as of today he is 9 months old. Its this little car you can push or ride. And it was pretty cheap. ANd at first he just sat and looked at it. The he pulled himself up on it and stared running. lol My little boy is such a mover. I can say this, im soo happy he's developing and becoming more independent, but i miss the dependent little guy. Im mean he can feed himself when he isnt nursing. He eats the little puffs, all by himself, and when he's eating other solid foods like peas carrots sweet potato and whatnot he takes the spoon from me and puts it right in his mouth. Sometimes he misses, but what do you expext hes 9 months old. He is truely my little sunshine. He is always soo happy laughing smiling, he wakes up smiling saying one of his words and trying to mimick our vocabulary. Seriously I was definately given a tremendous girt. Never a burden. Sure I miss out on stuff, like band camp this year and last, but its worth it. lol
Anyways happy halloween!

Birthdays

Such a good and bad thing. You get extra attention, but sometimes depending on circumstances these days can be forgotten. Well today is my moms birthday. Happy birthday mom. I painted her a picture, and I think she will like it. My mom is the type of person who tries hard not to be materialistic, but deep down we all are in some way. But unfortunately I am not wealthy and cannot buy her what I would like to. So its a painting for her, that took time and talent. :) I hope she likes it.
I love being up here. And I really think Andrew does too. He is usually so sweaty, but the past week besides tired crankiness, he has been soo happy and funny. I wish we didnt have to leave. Oh and walt and I went to town hall to look at there licensing dept to see what he would have to do to work here and guess what? He needs nothing! All he needs is the work. They dont require licensing here. He can pay 40$ every four years to be advertised as a flooring man or handy man or whatever. Another plus for cape cod!

Cold Weather Rocks

I love fall. Having never experienced it before I love it now. The leaves are turning and you get to wear coats and sweaters. Oh and the second you walk outside you don't imediately sweat. I love it.. And my sister and mom are here. Now I dont know how much I'd like to live with my mom so I really think I need to figure out how to be up here more independently. I wish we had lots of money. I want so badly to just be able to live in this "great nation" without worrying so much about war and crap. Oh well...

busy busy

So the last few days have been extremely hectic. Walts other boys are down, and of course means more action than normal. And Andrew doesnt care for matt. I think its because Matt gets up in his face and Andrew likes his space.. Anyways Matt will shove his face in drews and Andrew punches him as hard as he can. Kinda Funny.
And we switched realtors. We are now with weichert. And I had to clean the house by myself while matt and jeff and walt sat and watched. Did I mention I am sick... ugh busy busy...

tmj

So apparently I have a form of tmj. On occasion my jaw will dislocate if i open it wider than like two fingers width. And it hurts really bad.. sucks. And when I clench my jaw the muscles in there are seriously harder than steel.. you cant even push the muscle in.. it isnt squishy. lol. And from that I get frequent head aches all along the side of my face and jaw, behind my eyes ears and down my neck. Its really painfull. But unfortunately we dont have insurance, So it will continue to feel this way until we have money and I can get it fixed... I dont even know how to fix it, it isnt from grinding my teeth I think its from clenching my jaw. When Im mad and trying not to explode I clench my jaw...
On a happier note Andrew Walt and I are heading up to MA next week for about a week. It will be fun. And cool... I cant wait.

suprised

I've been doing alot of thinking about life and all and about my life my friends lives and how lucky I am to have the people in my life... And I realized I love being a mom.. well I realized it all over again.. and I think I want to try to have a girl. But Im not discussing this with walt yet because Drew is only 8 months old and this could be part of my post pardom kicking in.. but once Ive decided if I'd really like to then I will talk about it with him..get his pros and cons. More than likely he will have all cons, but I don't know... maybe.

Can't think of a title...

So Andrew is cute... lol. He says mom mom mom mom... almost all day. And he recognizes what he is saying. He will say baba and reach for his bottle. And he looks at me and says mom he looks to the door and says dada. And knows walt is dada. He is such a cutie.

Disgusted

so my mom and dads divorce was finalized months ago and my mom is in MA, my dad is still down here, and the bastard has his stupid 28yr old crackhead nasty girlfriend living in the house. You can look her up at ccso.org. Just type in Somer under local arrest database. And her name is somer michele w something. She is nasty and young. My dad is almost 50. What the hell is he doing running around with a nasty crack head like that. And whats worse is shes living in our house. That whore probably only dreamt of living in a house like that, and there she is prancing around it. I hate her. I hate him. He hasnt seen andrew in months. He lives here and my older sister who lives in tampa has seen Andrew more. And this is his first grandchild. I seriously have no one here. I have walt... but like my family beyond him sucks... well they dont suck my mom and sisters are just not here. Im so lonely. And like this town has alot of bad memories... with the fighting between my mom and dad, now that nasty whore... and walt runs in to past "conquests" we live in his house he had with keisha.. i need a change. Im suffocating. I need a way out. I wish we were rich.

The Nutcracker

So this Russian Ballerina is here and she is hoding auditions at our studio right now, and Im hiding out in the office because she is really stern... lol not the teaching Im used to. We are really nice and we speak english. lol. She doesnt speak very much so there is a language barrier.. Fortunately the dance steps are in french and its kinda funny that our common language is french, seeing as how the only french i know is dance steps.haha. oh well... And she is staying with michelle for the weekend.
ok well Im gonna get back .. lol

Almost 8 months

So drew is almost 8 months old and oddly I think I am going thru a delayed post pardom depression... and its really weird because I miss being pregnant. And anyone who knows me will also know I hated being pregnant...I think it is mainly because I have no family here and not alot of friends. I miss my mom. And none of my friends have kids really, so I dont really have anyone on that level with me.
Other than that Andrew is soo great, his vocabulary is quickly growing. He says dada baba boobie mom and shakes his head no lol. He crawls and laughs makes hilarious faces and noises.. he is soo funny.

He's crawling..

So Andrew My 7 month old munchin finnally started crawling about a week and a half ago. He says dada baba ma, and is sooo funny. He loves everyone... but he especially loves walter... almost as much as me. He wakes up smiling saying dada dada.. And walt will pick him up and he just starts laughing and smiling.. its soo cute.

He Speaks part 2

So Andrew also says baba and ma, not mama but ma lol. So cute. And he is advancing in the crawling process. He has the hands going one at a time, just not the feet lol. And he walks when you hold his hands. The other day I was at the dance studio, and I was standing next to the barre and Andrew grabbed it and tried to hold his body up. And then he grabbed on straight and he did hold up his weight. He is soo strong lol.

My Little Guys a Talker

Andrew has officially said his first word. DaDa. He will say it whenever you say it to him. He said it a few weeks ago but only a couple of times. But yesterday when walt came home andrew saw him and they were playing then walt got up to go take a shower and I was going to get a drink and Drew in a very commanding voice yells dada! It was soo cute so we run back over to the bed and he says dada again and again. I called my mom and she didnt answer so i left a message and he said it a few times on the message. Then i called my sister and he said it to her too. And I know he is talking because when he says it he sounds like a little person speaking. Its not baby talk its him using actual words. I am so amazed because he is only 6 1/2 months old. And Im pretty sure that saying words is early right now. I didnt think he'd start talking until he was at least 9 months old. Im impressed!!

6 1/2 month check up

So Andrew had a doctors appt yesterday, had to get two shots. I felt so bad for him because he was sooo happy and smiling at everyone and the doctor, then he gets two shots and cried soo had. Poor little guy. But he is fine now, doesnt even flinch when i touch the spot where he got the shots. But there is a red spot where he got them :(. He weighs 25 lbs, and growing like a weed. He is perfect and I couldnt love him any more than I do right now!!!!!!

Why

Why is it some people seem to have it all. I mean I know no one is perfect but some people seem pretty darn close.. Like they have everything they've ever wanted everyone loves them.. those people suck!!! lol I just feel like venting lol. gotta run.

So Cute

Andrew is soo freakin cute. He smiles at everyone. The other day I was telling michelle a funny story and Andrew started laughing like he knew what was going on. He loves to smile and show off his two teeth. And he is actually thinning out. He is getting taller and he is moving around way more. He's got the whole thrust and pull down, he pulls himself with his arms and thrusts his legs. lol. Well I gotta run, time for dance.

Andrew update

Oh and he can definately sit up and play. He loves reaching for toys, I forgot i was going to write about that.

So Sad

I feel so sad so defeated so beaten down. Just thing after thing keeps hapening. I feel so alone, I feel like theres no one here for me. I have no family here. Im so depressed. Sometimes I just wonder what if... ranging from good what ifs to bad. I feel so hopeless.
Andrew is my light in the darkness. He has no clue but he carries me. Makes me wake up in the morning, eat, everything. He has a tooth, all the way thru and it looks like the next one is trying to break on thru to the other side. (some dry humor) He is trying to crawl. So far he scoots, His arms pull him his legs push. He can move around like that. But no actual crawling yet. He is such a happy baby. I have no idea where he gets it. And he said dada the other day. When he starts laughing and squealing he will try to talk and he says dada. so that i guess is his first word.

Oh BOY!!

So we have listed our home for sale for a whopping 114,900. And if it sells we will be off to MA. And start a new life there. Its bitter sweet because Im leaving things I really care about as is Walter, but at the same time my mom is there and I miss her so much, as is my sister. And this is my first and more than likely only child, and my moms first grandbaby and I feel like I need her more now than ever before. lol. I know moving is hard and stressful but seriously how are we supposed to move forward in life if we dont go thru some hard stuff, yano?
Andrew is perfect. Such a great baby, I'm soo lucky to have a good baby. We can go to the movies and he is great, out to eat( as long as the resturant has fans or audible music) and anyone can hold him, he isnt all mommy crazed. lol. And he is such a big baby. He weighs like 23 or 24 lbs right now and he wears 12 to 18mo clothing. And he is in a size 4 diaper, well hes been wearing those for about 2 months now. lol. But he is soo cute, he has these big brown eyes that just melt my heart. And he will just lie on the bed or sit in his car seat or in his swing or bouncy seat and just coo or squeal or scream. But not a crying scream, just a plain ole I found my voice so Im using it. lol. He is truely a life changing blessing. I never knew I could love anything so much. And it is a different kind of love. Like i love walt passionately, but I love andrew different. Its hard to describe. But those two guy are the loves of my life and make me soooo happy.
No matter what is going on in my world I know I have them. my sweet angels.

times are changing

Alot has happened in the past couple weeks. And I cant tell all yet but walt and i are making major changes in our lives. We have had certain realizations and realities that needed to be dealt with.. And we are. More to come.
Other than that everything is great. Walt Andrew and I are great, I love being a mom and having a family. Andrew gets cuter and cuter everyday. And I know I'm biased but Im allowed to be, Im a mom lol. He is sooo funny too. He learned how to roll over both ways, back to front and front to back like over 2 months ago. He did it alot for about a week, then since then, doesnt care. He's only rolled over like twice since then. He is soo funny.
Walt is great to. He's been working as much as possible, we've been saving as much as we can, and are keeping our heads above the water as much as we can.
Matt and Jeff are coming back from alaska as we speak and will be back in GA around the 10th or 11th. So we will get them that weekend which is like the 13th i think, but they start school Aug. 3rd so they will only be here for like 2 weeks.
well gotta run, mommy duties

Andrew's First Flight

Our flight was great, except the whole leaving thing. I was pleasently suprised that walter was allowed to help me onto the plane. He was on the plane sitting next to me and I was like, geez you should just come with me. But he didnt. And I seriously didnt know how much I'd miss him.I mean I only left this morning and I'm like agh I dont ever want to travel without him again. I cried when he was walking off the plane. And I cried as we took off, it wasnt until 20 mins in that I stopped. I seriously wish he could've come. I mean I knew I'd miss him, But I didnt realize how much. Its Just an achy feeling that he isnt here. I've already talked to him like 6 times today. Andrew on the plane was awesome. He was soo good. He didnt cry or sleep, he flirted with the all the people around him. LOL He was smiling and laughing and took a small nap that last about 20 mins of our 3 and a half hour flight. But he was so cute and precious.
Well I've got to go.. I'm exhausted.

Shots

My little guy got shots yesterday. Poor thing. If I could get them for him I would. He didnt realize he got the first one, but he felt the rest. He was ok yesterday, a little sore, but that also can be from the teething. But today he spit up and it was yellow. And Im not sure how normal that is. It was only a tiny tiny bit that he actually spit up, but the fact it was yellow bugs me, I'm watching him closely (he is napping now) and if it happens again, im gonna call his doctor. Other than that he is still happy, sitting up by himself, kinda wobbaly but for the most part he's pretty centered. I never truely realized how much a baby can change your life. But it was such a smooth and welcomed change.

Today

Much to do today. Andrew has a doctors appt. today, and that wil be very interesting because i get to see how much my little booger has grown in the past two months. Then we have a lunch date at 130, and then i want to clean the house up pretty decent. Then walts buddy is coming over to work on his drums. The drummer that i guess will be his drummer for beyond driven is this guy tony. he was in another local band OZ. So yea, he is alittle rusty, but is pretty good.
Then tomorrow i have work for like 3 hours and im gonna make some money which will be sweet because we have bils that are on the verge of being overdue....
So Ive got a busy couple of days coming up. Then i go to MA.. :( Im happy to go but i really wish walt could go to.... sad.. lol

Going Going gone..

LOL As you may be able to tell I'm going somewhere. Well I'm flying to Boston for a few days. I'm leaving the 18th, Just Andrew and I. Walt and Ozzy will be home. And I'm really going to miss him. We've only spent a night apart... Wow and now for the first time in almost 3 years I'm going to be apart from my Wallabee. LOL. I'm kinda sad. I really wish he could come wit us, but he needs to stay and make money... we dont have alot and It is really needed. Soo I'm going alone. :( sad...

Break in... Almost

So someone tried to break into our back yard. Nice right. And what's sad is that I'm pretty sure we know who did it. Walt was mowing the yard and was in between the boat and our privacy fence and he noticed that fence was pulled off of it's main rig. And its obvious someone tried to climb it. But stopped their efforts to get over the fence once they realized there is barbed wire on the top. And we know exactly who tried to break in. There is a house two doors down from us that has three kids on house arrest, cops are always there, and it's a known crack house. Nice neighborhood to raise a baby huh?
Other than that money is tight, walt hasn't had steady flow of work, but his philosophy is that if you want money and lust for it you will never have it. But if you just relax and go with the flow and do what you need to do, you will be ok. But honestly I want to be more than ok. I want us to be able to save for longer than a few months. I want us to have reserves that last more than one months bills. But I guess according to Walt I need to not want that stuff otherwise we will never have it. I really hate rich people. They have it pretty darn easy. They even get tax breaks from the president. But as walt just pointed out there are alot of rich people out there that are reallly unhappy, so I guess we are better off. LOL at least we are happy!!!!! ;p So yea, and its a big long continuous cycle... Rich people, rich kids, then they have money.. then their kids have money. and so on and so on. Vicious cycle! lol. But I know one day we wont have to worry about the money. It will take care of itself. We just have to keep our head above the water for right now.
Andrew is having a sweet slobberfest right now lol.

Friday

So I'm sitting at the celtic with walt and drew. And Drew is soooo funny. Walt is sitting with him on his lap and has his guinness sitting in front of him, and Andrew wants its sooo bad! he keeps reaching for it and when he cant reach it he starts to whimper. So cute. And today is bob the bassist in walts band son's birthday. Lennon. He's 2 today ok more than whimpering time for mommy to step in.

Andrew update

So Andrew has started to eat solid foods. So far he has tried organic rice cereal and organic peas. And he seems to like both. I put the spoon in his mouth and he takes it and and mushes around in his mouth then puts his fist in his mouth and starts sucking on it. Im not sure he has a grasp on how to swallow yet, but last night when I fed the peas to him he seemed to really like those and swallowed those down just fine. So I think he likes those better than the rice cereal. And I don't blame him because I tried both and the peas taste way better. He is so cute. And when I fed him the peas he must of really liked them because he grabbed the spoon out of my hand and decided he wanted to hold it. Such a good baby. He loves sitting in his bouncy seat. And the seat has all these little pooh bear theme toys on it. One of which when you press it down it pays a song. And today he learned how to push it and make the music start. So he sits in his seat and pushes the pooh bear honey jar and a song will play and lights go off and he watches it and when the music stops he pushes it in again. So cute. And he is so smart considering he has only sat in the bouncy seat like 3 times lol. And his hernia is going away slowly. It's about half the size it was when it was at it's biggest. Right now he is laying beside me talking to me. Opening his mouth and saying ahhh ahh ahh ahh lol in various volumes and intensities. lol. I love him. Seriously he is such a gift. I think its soo funny how babies put the soles of their feet together. Now he is grabbing my arm. I guess I'm not paying enough attention to him. So I better go.

Showtime

Showtime 2007 was incredible everyone did amazing, and it was practically drama free. Im looking foreward to starting private lessons over the summer and continue stretch and flex and turns and leaps. Summers are slow for walter and the extra cash is really going to help. And Im doing turns and leaps soo cheap. only 5 dollars a kid per class. And the class is an hour and a half. lol. so they are getting a deal! I hope everyone comes lol.

My Little Prince

Ok, Andrew is awesome. I seriously cannot say it enough. He can practically sit up on his own, he just uses whatever is closest to brace himself. Like right now we are sitting in panera and he is on my knee holding himself up with the table. He squeals and laighs and tries sooo hard to talk to me. He opens his mouth and lets out his voice and tries to copy the shape my mouth makes. And I'm soo lucky he is happy to go to anyone that wants to hold him. He is dependent enough and independent enough. Right now and for the past 2 weeks he's started teething. And he is taking it like a champ. The only time he lets it bug him is at around 6 or 7 pm and he is a little fussy. But I ust start playing with him or check his diaper to take his mind off of it, and it usually works well. God truely blessed me with this little guy.

P.S.

So this summer Im going to see my mom, and when i get back (Im only going for like a week) Im gonna start my private lessons at the dance studio. Im charging 30 dollars an hour 15 a half hour, and i think im still going to continue the turns and leaps on saturdays from 11 to 1230. And im only charging 5 dollars per person for that hour and a half. so its a really good deal. And if i get like 5 kids thats 25$ extra a week cash. Basically my gas. lol. And I keep telling walt I will get another job if he wants me to, but he keeps say no you dont work I'm the man. LOL which is fine with me. But if money gets tight I hope he will chill lol. But I dont think it will come to that. He finds work and has alot of connections. He can do floors and work for tim with lowes... so he has alot going on right now, and has work lined up for the next 3 weeks. So we are slowly building up our savings account again, since it was drained when matt and jeff were here and walt had no work for like 3 weeks. lol. But anyways I just had some additional thoughts I wanted to add while i had the time, while andrew WAS sleeping lol.

Charlotte County

So This county is dumb, They changed the laws to the flooring installation again, walt can no longer lift a hammer or a nail gun on any wood floor job in charlotte county, So he isnt able to do wood without a carpentry license. Isnt that crazy. So basically he cant do wood in charlotte county. But he found a loop hole, he's getting a carpentry license from sarasota and working under a friends carpentry license in charlotte. So it works out, but he shouldnt have to. He's been so frustrated lately but luckily he has been hanging out with david weathers, the guy from jackass. He is going out to his out like every day this week and helping him clean his bear cages and lions and alligators and lots of other animals. Yea he lives in charlotte county and has those animals on his property. He seems like a cool guy and Walt loves hanging out with him, he is really down to earth. I've only met him once but once his place is all fixed up I'm gonna go down there with walt and see all the animals. Seems very cool. Alright g2g lots to do.

Ugh

So I had to say goodbye to my mom again, and it sucked. She left yesterday with my little sister for M.A. and ugh I cried... Still am actually. This time it was sooo real. Like the house is empty and all their stuff is gone, and what they didnt pack or I didnt want they threw away. It just sucks. I hate distance. My mom hates it here, but I am happy here, but now that she is gone it just sucks. I know I will be ok when some time passes and its not like Im not ever going to see her again, but its just really fresh right now. And now I have a baby, which is a time in a womens life that a daughter would want her mom around. For motherly advice or company.. And unless she or I hop on a plane and travel 3 hours I dont have that. But saying goodbye was so hard.. I just stood there hugging her and crying. Ugh.. sucked. And Im gonna miss her to. Like today I didnt have dance, so I was like well if my mom was here I'd go shopping with her and shannon, or go see a movie this afternoon... yea so I'm sad:(
Other than that, everything is good. Andrew is awesome, smiling happy.. trying sooo hard to speak.. He says gah and da and goo lol. He is soo cute. He is sleeping thru the night, in my bed lol. But Im still nursing him so its easier on me. And we still need to get a matress for his crib. Im going to visit my mom is June.. the 18th I think. So I'm going to start weening him into his crib in his room. I think it's going to be harder on me than him lol.
Oh and the charlotte county thing, we got a letter saying our house looked junky and we were going to start being fined 250 a day unless we fixed it. And the only problem was that our grass wasnt mowed and we had a fish tank on our driveway... Yet there are crack houses on our road that go on cracking lol. they are worried about grass.. geez. But I like our junky looking house because then I felt safer because if it looked too nice we might have been broken into again... Our neighborhood isnt the nicest, its actually the ghetto of PC. But apparently in the next few years they will be enforcing inimate domain or however you spell it. So in a few years we will be forced out of our home so they can put up nice houses and duplexes. So what do they care what our house looks like. Oh well Im done venting.
On a happier note, walts band is doing great.. They played their gig last week and it went really good. Not to mention they didn have alot of rehersal time so they did really really good lol. I guess they have another one coming up in june in sarasota opening for somewhat of a big band.. I forget who tho. And this one is a paying gig. It will be nice to have an additional income with walt doing what he loves to do. Plus I'm off all summer, and dont start teaching again till august. So yea That will be nice.

Something New...?

So this is my new blog, a place where all thoughts can be shared and others can read or not. p.s. I HATE CHARLOTTE COUNTY!!