many things I'd like to change

There are many things i wish i could change, one money, and i'd like to have some, two my mentalitity and the way i look at things. Sometimes i just let my thoughts consume me and im just an empty shell of a person sooo deep in thought and my own brain i have no idea whats going on a round me. and i hang on to stupid stuff that happens. I always expect that the worse will hapen when it comes to men and confrentation, but yet im optimistic for the future. How do i do it? i have no clue. ugh!! now i know why people drink. lol